When everything's all done and over with what do we really have to show? I guess i just always thought that i would be miserable no matter what. But great things happened to me and i had to fuck it up because i believed that i just didn't deserve to be happy. Heh, well in my short time here i've experienced more than any kid my age could really hope to experience, granted that there are probably more out there who have experienced more than i have but i'm trying to make a point. Despite it all i really have only one regret and there really is no good way for me to say much on the subject since it was entirely my fault. This isn't for my own peace of mind because i've come to terms with the fact that there are just some sins i can't have forgiven. I just want to say that i'm sorry for all the wasted time. All of the emotional and mental stress i've caused, and just for being a jerk.

In my quest to find myself i realized that you are right. it's kind of funny actually, then i would have given everything to have someone make me feel the way i do about you but now, well... now i don't want to rely on anyone since i've seen how badly i've treated you. I can't protect you from myself and my ignorance. Too bad life can't be simple i would love to say i'm at peace with this but i guess that would be a lie. it's always going to be on my mind as well as what could have been. I'm not asking for another chance, we both know that it's just too tiring to make it work. I'm just saying that i wanted you to be happy, and i still do. You really believed in me and you stuck by me no matter what. I truely don't deserve a friend like you and i'm paying for the choices i made back then. But i want you to believe in yourself and become an artist of great prestige. We both know you can do it and i will always believe in you. You were right, i do love you. Too bad i was too dumb to see it until now. I won't bother you ever again, good luck with everything.